As a very goal-oriented person, a new month is always a good way to see if and how much I need to redefine my goals or to shift and make new goals. Although I don’t think you need to wait until the new month to start making a change or a goal. Sometimes for me, it’s a good tracker to assess how well you are doing at your goals at the begging and end of a month. I do a mental check in every month to see how I am doing and what has changed with my goals. Re-assessing is key for me.

So here are what I hope to change and do more of this month:

Less judgment/ being hard on myself - In the last few weeks, there has been a bit of a realization that most people don’t negativity talk down themselves in their heads…. I just do that to myself. I thought everyone did that. I’m naturally very hard on myself and I don’t really feel like I’m good enough. I am still working through where that comes from…. so maybe that’s for another blog post. I’m realizing this is something I have to work on. I feel like my best isn’t good enough. I know this sounds odd but it’s how I make myself feel. It’s become harder to be proud of myself. I judge myself in a negative way and gets me in the worst mood. How my mom put it was, if a friend talked to me the way I would talk to myself, I would stop being friends with them. So this month I want to start being more aware of when I am doing this, and most importantly convincing my brain to turn a negative into a positive. There are so many negative soul-sucking people out there and why should I be doing that to myself?

Making more time to read- As someone who feels that they are on technology way too much, reading is my ideal way to unplug. The way I plan to implement reading more into my daily future is by reading before I go to sleep. Most nights I end up playing on my phone or watching YouTube for the last hour before going to bed. I’ve found that it not only makes it more difficult to fall asleep because I’m wired but also that quantity of time adds up and should be better spent. So instead my goal is to be reading every night if I not going to go straight to bed. In my notes app, I’ve started a folder called books I want to read, which I am hoping I can finish this summer. There are about 12 books on that list. Currently, on that list, I’m reading the newest version of Transgender History by Susan Stryker. I’ve been self-educating myself more and more on this topic and I have committed to this book because your girl got to keep themselves informed, so far it’s really informational and I’m glad I’m reading it!

Editing 1 hour a day (at least) - This is one of my 2020 goals and I haven’t been the best at staying with it. No excuses, I just have not been making the time to edit. I still film videos and I have plenty of work to do in my editing software. I want to get back to making this a habit so I’ve decided for the remaining 3 weeks of school I’m going to get my hour in right after I finished my 3 classes of the day. If I get my then an hour in a day that would be great but scheduling that specific time in every day I think will help me stay more consistent. (at least for the next month)

Letting go of Social Media anxiety- My anxiety when posting on social media has gotten worse and worse. I dislike the feeling I get when I post on Instagram. I feel like I don’t want to post too much a be spam, or obnoxious. I also know my engagement goes down when I post multiple times a week but thinking about what Gary Vaynerchuk says “one step back to create two steps further”. I know one of the reasons I get insecure about posting is because people from my school follow and are viewing my content, I know this is such small picture thinking but sometimes I feel like I’m getting judged. …and I’m scared of it. Wow writing that down really made me realized how silly that sounds.

So in honor of this, I’m going to be doing an experiment on my Instagram and on myself. I’m going to start posting more frequently/real-time content. I’m not saying I’ll post every day but a few times a week is something that would currently push me outside of my comfort zone. I really want to start posting reels and posts more. and in general, want to take Instagram seriously, my content can be stylized and I think more people out there would enjoy my style and perspective.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post! Do you have monthly goals? if so I want to read all about them, feel free to comment on my Instagram post or DM me and tell me what they are. My last goal-related post was 2021 growth goals were actually 6 months ago in January.

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