schools over? huh
Not gonna lie during the last virtual class I started tearing up. My language arts teacher read something, it was just about growth and then he said his usual ending to classes “drink water, be safe, goodbye young people”….and I lost my shit. I started tearing up and immediately Face Timed one of my friends and cried for half an hour. I was sad. I will never be in those classes with my 2 favorite teachers who made sure I learned. I truly want me and my peers to grow and learn. I witnessed one teacher go beyond basic teaching to help a student whose second language was English. My classmate really struggled and our teacher rose to the occasion to make sure he understood. It was cool.
Once I was done crying and talking to my friend… I went downstairs and my Mom asked, “ how was your last class “ and I lost it again…. I don’t think I can blame this one on hormones.. huh? I just had an emotional day for being home. My friend kept on saying “ I can’t believe anyone really liked school that much“ but for me, I have learned that school has brought purpose and a routine, which I need to be sane. I love learning, even if I learn differently and a bit slower than my peers. Learning and growing is fun, and watching others grow is a bonus. I guess I’ve been needing to have a good cry about how school and got cut short. High School is funnier than I thought it was going to be. I liked getting to meet new people and socialize constantly.
The shit has hit the fan on multiple different levels and not finishing my freshman year was just important. I feel so bad for the seniors tho. Next year I won’t be in the same classes and might be confused because I didn’t learn much online, but Seniors won’t ever be a high school again. I just wanted to acknowledge that crying randomly about something that happened months (March 11th) is ok… I learning there is no guidebook on how to act in these circumstances, especially as a teenager that always feels behind. But hey it’s summer so at least I don’t have to do school and the weather is getting warmer!
sunglasses: Warby Parker/shorts: old Topshop/ headband: old Forever21/ t-shirt: old Alternative Apparel shoes: Birkenstock